For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospel’s will save it. For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? (Mark 8:35-37)
Interesting question. What is so important to you at the moment that you are willing to lose yourself to get it? A question that has been running through my mind for quite sometime. A question that I keep asking myself when I think about what I have and what I don’t have. A question that the Holy Spirit keeps bringing to my remembrance when I start looking through any social media and start the comparison game. You know the game where you make two columns-one called me and one called them and you start checking what you have against what they have?
Why is it so important for me to keep that question close in my heart? Because if I don’t I begin to start focusing on the world instead of focusing on God. For me the world becomes loneliness. When I sit too long in the idea that I don’t have a husband or even a boyfriend or even someone to date my focus shifts to “nobody loves me”, “I don’t have any friends”, “everyone else has someone and they don’t understand how this feels”. And honestly even as I’m writing this that heavy feeling is sitting right on my shoulder close to my heart and sometimes-ok more than sometimes-that feeling wins. When that feeling wins the thought crosses my mind that I can satisfy the feeling of loneliness by having sex with someone. But then the Holy Spirit gently reminds me that sex will only leave me feeling worse than before.
Sometimes I think I can make myself feel better by purchasing things I know I don’t need. Even if it’s something small as long as I’m spending money on something it takes the focus way from how I’m feeling. And that includes food. There have been many hamburgers or pizzas contemplated (and yes eaten) that were a result of feeling unloved. And once again I start thinking that this will only make things worse not better. Not only because my reasons were not correct but now I have less money than I did before.
Now sex, food and material things are not bad and honestly God wants us to have those things but they must not become more important than God and they must be had in God’s timing and within God’s guidelines.
So my prayer for myself and for others who struggle with putting the world before their own soul is that we can lean more into God during those struggles and allow Him to be the comfort that we need.
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